I've settled down...

I'm feeling a lot better today (and not so bitter). Your sweet comments and emails have helped tons. Plus, I went to church today for a little bit. Since it was Fast and Testimony day, I thought it would be a perfect day for me to get up and express my gratitude to the Lord-- but it was a no go. I was emotional through everybody else's testimonies-- and knew I'd not be able to blubber out one coherent word if I got up to the pulpit. So hopefully, that day will come sometime.
I spent a good chunk of the day in the NICU with Kean. When I got there, he had a bag taped around his "manhood" to capture his urine for testing. It was pretty clever and less intrusive than a catheter. But he sure didn't like it when it came time to gently pull the tape off. Poor little guy. He got his third bath -- and that seemed to calm him.
I talked to Dr. Meyers (the NICU doctor I have the best relationship with-- he went to Duke-- that should explain it). He has studied the ultrasound of Kean's liver and told me today he thinks everything should be okay. Of course, we need to wait for the MRI on Tuesday-- but he thinks the mass is a cluster of blood vessels that may just absorb as he grows. They'll just have to watch it closely. There are a few other little spots that he thinks may be smaller masses or calcification deposits. If they are calcification deposits-- they may be from an infection in the womb and therefore, he would have them scan the brain and other tissues for similar deposits. But Dr. Meyers is leaning against that and towards the blood vessels (there is some medical term he was using-- but I can't remember it for the life of me). So after talking to him today, I feel much, much calmer. All I could ask him is where were you yesterday???