Reincarnated As A Mother

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Hold On... Buckle Up and Brace Yourself


Life sucks.  Big time.

As you know, Kean has had a fever on and off for much of the past week.  And then over the weekend, his right arm swelled up and became very sore.  Well, the blood work came back with “abnormal” cells—cells his new Oncology (Cancer) doctor says look like Leukemia. 

They are admitting Kean tomorrow at lunch time and will start bone marrow testing on Thursday morning to determine which kind of Leukemia and the plan for treatment.  We were told to expect to be in the hospital for 2 to 6 weeks.

So here we go again.  Back to St. Luke’s.  I’m worried sick about leaving the three girls again and even more worried about how we will survive watching Kean in pain, Kean lose his hair, Kean sick, sick, sick.

My mind is jumbled with all kinds of fears and thoughts but I am following the advice of a dear friend – another mom we met in NICU when Kean was so sick as a little pup.  She told me—ah, 2 to 6 weeks is nothing… you’ve already done way more time than that.  And she told us to take just a minute at a time… then work up to five.  So that’s what we plan to do.  We can survive one minute and then tackle the next.


11 comments:

Stacy said...

Have been thinking of you (and praying) all day. We love you guys!

Stacy

mle said...

So sorry to hear the bad news lonni. You and Kean have already proven that you are strong. There will be prayers from me and from many others asking to help your family continue to be so strong. Hang in there and know we're thinking of you.

Adam Symson said...

I am so sorry to hear of this terrible news. I will be keeping the little guy in my thoughts and prayers for a swift recovery!

Shannon said...

My dear friend...as a pediatric nurse, I can honestly tell you I have seen the strength and resilience of sick children, the perseverance of loving parents, and the devotion of their precious siblings!! I have no doubt that your wonderful family has the faith, the love and the will to get through to the other side of this!! You will be in my heart and prayers, and I'm here for you in any way I can be! You are loved!!

April said...

So sorry Lonni - my thoughts and prayers are with you, Kean and your family! You can do this, I know you can. Please let me know if there's anything I can do to help.

CarolF said...

Lonni, I am so sorry. This just doesn't seem possible. I will be praying for a fast recovery for Kean and for strength for all of you!

Carol

Michele Lyn said...

Lonnie we love you and your family SOOOOO much! Our thoughts and prayers, love and support go with you. You are strong. Your family is strong. Kean we know is strong. We keep you all in our thoughts and prayers now and always!
Love the 4 Roses

Darlene said...

Lonni: I would have to say the word I felt when I read your blog about Kean was shocked. I sometimes wonder why the Lord singles out some people to have to suffer more than others. You and Byron have had more than your share the last few years. Kean couldn't ask for better parents and you will certainly see him through this. Know that you will be in my daily prayers. Love, Darlene

Chris said...

Honey, all I can say is I'm praying for you, Kean, the girls and Byron. xoxoxo

Kelly Mendoza said...

Lonni,
We don't know each othe, but a friend of yours De sent out a prayer request for you & your family. So I just want you to know there is an army of women out there praying for your son. May God be with you during these trying times. Many prayers, Kelly

@jenhalloran said...

Lonni, I hope you can feel the love and prayers of so many on your behalf. Kean is a precious little spirit and has such an amazing family -- and mother. Thank you for keeping us in the loop. xoxo